Audesi – Wave Profusion (Rough Draft)
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There, just two feet below him, was the stream — alive, sparkling, thrilling. He had known about it all along, but at that moment he actually saw it flowing beneath him.

Audesi – The Infernal Machine
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I decided I’m sick of the flow of slow computers and waiting for softsynths to load and of connecting tracks and everything… It just seems like the flow of everything is becoming SO SLOW!! I’m sick of it!

I hooked up all my hardware synths, at least with as many audio and midi cables that I could find. So now I’m surrounded in keyboards at the moment. I programmed a beat on my Electribe ES-1 and started playing my synths. :) It’s nice to record things quickly, although Cubase was crashing a ton for some reason when dealing with real MIDI and then my Korg controller KB quit working, so I couldn’t make better piano with one of the softsynths I was using… lol.

Audesi – Slow Birth
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Frozen Remix CD [3CD Set]

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lvl – Home (Audesi Remix) Streaming Sample
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lvl – Home (Remix EP)

Audesi – Shallow Reminder
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Kind of Phat (Beat)
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This is a demo track I created for Sample Logic‘s new sample library called ‘The Elements’. I created it using only sounds from the library. It ships October 15th and is available to preorder now for $299.

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Polaroid Kiss – Stop Motion
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Credits: Tom Bennett, Brandun Reed & Earl Dixon
Produced by: Brandun Reed & Earl Dixon
Mixed & Mastered by: Earl Dixon

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Gangsta Lead Extravaganza! lol.

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From the Take It & Break It Remix Competition.

Own Little World Remix CD

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From FIXT Music / Position Music Production Music Series – Volume 32 (Electronic)

I just finished producing, mixing & mastering Love in Transition for Polaroid Kiss.

Credits: Tom Bennett, Brandun Reed & Earl Dixon
Produced by: Brandun Reed & Earl Dixon
Mixed & Mastered by: Earl Dixon

Update:

Love in Transition can be purchased as part of the White Lies and White Lines single, available on iTunes. Here’s a link:

I looked out the window, the sky was gray.
Everything that I’ve known has long since passed away.
I walked outside without locking the door,
I got in my car and I drove away.

I don’t know where the sky turns blue,
with me and you, where the sky turns blue again.
Singing along the same old song,
I’m starting to see where I’ve been going wrong.

When time leans down to pick us up,
We will learn to drink from lifes cup.
Our souls will burn a mark in God’s design,
Our World will define itself in due time.

As the sun goes down,
I’ll be waiting for tomorrow to come.
and as I lay here,
I’ll be thinking of you.

So, come tomorrow
I’ll be ready to let it go.
I’ll leave behind my sorrows,
for awhile.

Here, the tide gently sways,
I’ve managed to walk away,
but I can’t stop holding on,
I’m starring into the sun.

Mandy came out because she was picking up some bread for her grandma and also to go get something to eat, so she came and got me and I went with her and then we went to Gateway and we got something to eat in the food court. She got pizza from S’barro and I ended up getting 2 Hot & Spicy McChicken sandwiches. I ate her pizza crust cuz she doesn’t like it. She also got a Lemonade which I kept on stealing sips of. haha.

It was good to see her, I’m so funny though, I didn’t want her to go, even though I knew she was only coming out for a little bit. I just want to grab her right now and kiss her and hug her. It’s nuts? That’s what I want to do right now, but it’s 3 in the morning, (actually Nov 21st) and she’s nowhere around, because she’s at home, asleep. So I’m just going to go to bed here soon.

I don’t like that I keep making her feel bad because I get upset easy because she likes to pick on me and I’m too damn moody. lol. Now she feels like every thing’s her fault and I don’t want her to feel like that. It was good to see her today, I thought she looked pretty good. I like her new hair, I saw her new pants too, I thought she looked hot. heh. She says it’s “all lies!”.. naw.

She said she gets upset when she has no reason at all to get upset, not with just me, but she does it to her dad to and that she should take some time away to figure out why she does it and to sort it all out. I don’t like the thought of spending time away, but I guess she says that would be best and that it would only be for like a week or something sometime. We’re leaving to Vegas probably on Sunday instead of Monday, it really depends on the weather. I looked earlier and it was good Sat, Sun, Mon and Tues. But now I look hours later and it’s saying it’s snowing Sat, Mon and Tues and the rest of the week. It only looks good on Sunday.. We’ll look Saturday and determine when we should be leaving..

I have always tried to live with reality; to stop trying to climb to the top and fit in with society. When I was young, my thoughts were strong. Nothing could bring me down, but time ticks by and life is the same. I feel like I’m losing my mind.

But no matter how hard I seem to try, I feel I’m living a lie. I’m living a lie. I’m living a lie. I’m living a lie.

Well, my folks always told me, “You have to chase after your dreams. Once you give up, the chance will pass you by and life will replace your dreams.” Maybe they’re right, maybe they’re wrong. But is it really worth the chance? “You’ve got one shot to live. Don’t give it up! You may still have a chance.”

Maybe this life I live is worth a try? Or am I living a lie? Living a lie. Living a lie. Living a lie.

Piano Improvision
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In the times I fought my bitterness,
My heart ached in a waking sadness.
I screamed out and prayed for someone
to take away this emptiness.

You’re the one that came to me,
The only one that could stand to see,
The one that can love me for who I am,
The one that’s willing to understand.

I had a vision so wonderful,
so wide and so bountiful.
The tears we’ve cried still form a tide,
to wash away all the hurt inside.

Being with you is like that tide,
I no longer need to hold it inside.

It was Matt’s b-day today. He turned 24. I hate the fact that we’re getting old…

Everything I’ve ever hoped for,
Comes running pass me and out the door.
Raining acid through my tear ducts,
The pain I cause myself, I can’t endure.

This voice inside of me is killing me,
Why can’t I keep my sanity?
What went wrong to lead to this?
Are the facts really so hard to miss?

I can never see the signs as they come,
The truth is that I wander around blind.
I can’t remember where I’m coming from,
The struggle goes on, but I remain calm.

I’m so tired and ready to fall,
I swore to all end that I’d hold on.
I’ve walked, I’ve ran, I’ve even crawled.
I don’t want to lift my head beyond.

If I could see a little ahead,
The truth is I wouldn’t want to.
I just can’t get it out of my head.
I know there’s something I’ve got to do.

Why can’t I? I can’t seem to let it go.
Why can’t I? Life’s too short to die alone.
Why can’t I? As my body’s getting old.
Why can’t I? As my heart’s growing cold.

My faith is contained in minuet steps,
Holding onto the edge of the impossible.
I’ve tried to commit the idea to death,
but it’s mad to mock the inevitable.

Distance threatened the clear perceptions,
We had as two people in love.
We carelessly believed all the misconceptions..
and never stopped to lift our heads above.

Sole entities, intertwined as one,
Simply misplaced by an absence of time.
I’m left screaming, as I toss and turn,
Waiting for what truth leads me to find.

Why can’t I? I can’t seem to let it go.
Why can’t I? Life’s too short to die alone.
Why can’t I? As my body’s getting old.
Why can’t I? As my heart is growing cold.

My soul wanders off into the abyss, forever changing and unrecognisable by those long ago. This sweet passion drives me and I’m no longer afraid. What they say is what they believe and it’s all bullshit to me, because my heart wanders free of their prejudice, unshackled from their imprisoning minds.

Then again, I believe as I believe, but I know that I don’t have all the answers, but in my unrestricted curiosity, I have a right of life and the will to learn and to experience it without believing all the naive conceptions revolving around me. Individuals fail to be born, everyday. As each of us are taught not to believe in ourselves and not to contain, maintain, or to show how powerful our ideas really are, or would be, if only given the opportunity, ideas fail to come into light. This conflict imprisons us and stands in the way.

Unfortunately, people believe as they will believe and so they also believe as they’ve miscomprehended, globally and universally. It’s only important to know what’s in my own heart, to know myself and to believe in myself, to be who I want to be and to be doing the things that by my own will and passion, I choose to do, to speak my mind of everything which interests me.

I have no say in who might listen, nor should it matter who they are, but as long as it makes me content in my own heart knowing I have done it, I will continue to do it. I’m not sure if that makes sense or sounds as if it’s a contradiction, but I think following the passion and the drive in your own heart is the only thing that keeps those ideas and goals altruistic and it’s something that can’t be mimicked and should never be silenced or critiqued.

Every time you fall away from being yourself and believing in yourself, you’ll see this World can be jaded, skeptical and critical without knowing it, it’s all in denial of themselves and what they believe is the truth.

It’s all coming out again, as I follow these twisted roads, that lead me away from where my heart had grown so cold. I feel the warmth as I embrace in change. The World changes around us all and I hope to see it all!

I sit here helplessly and watch it all fall into place,
time moves so quickly, I watch it wash over me.

I don’t want to let you go,
so just lay here with me.
There’s things in my heart that I want you to know
and places that call out our names that say, “Let it be!”.

My thoughts drift through abstract reason
and dreams dawn in the dusk of our leisure.
I open up my eyes as I remember the feeling.
I could no longer hold onto the anguish that I held in my heart.
Held in my heart for so long… “Let it be!”

It’s really not hard to see the beauty,
when I’m so close that I’m inner twined with you,
a teardrop falls down on my cheek when I realise
there’s no one else like you.

Went to the bookstore, got a ice-cold Carmel frappuccino, went to Virgin megastore, bought BT’s new album. Went to the arcade, played pinball and air-hockey. Mandy beat me 7 to 4.. then I beat her 7 to 4.. then we played again.. she beat me 7 to 4.. then I beat her 7 to 4. We officially whooped each others asses. LOL. equally. LOL. Went to subway grabbed a sandwich. Listened to BT. Went to memory grove and ate and chilled, sat with our legs intertwined on a bench in the middle of a bunch of gravestones by the meditation house. Mandy messed my hair all up. lol. took a bunch of pics in the progress of all this, went off looking for pagan alters then ended up on top of the mountain and sat and looked at a nice view of the city. Went to 7-Eleven and got some pop rocks and coke. LOL. No, they don’t make your stomach explode! But they do pop really fast in your mouth. Ended up laying on two slides next to each other in my elementary school playground.

My hard-drive crashed a couple days ago in my main audio computer. I lost a lot of stuff. It’s a wonder I’m not ripping my hair out. This happened to me before in 2000 and I couldn’t sleep for days, I was pacing back and forth and ripping my hair out. I never felt such anxiety, but I guess like all things in life, you can learn how to handle and maybe it’s better this way.

It forces me to rework things and I think that’s the way it’s probably meant to be. In a lot of ways this is still a positive thing. The last days I’ve been putting things back together and setup so I can start working on music again. I’m going to have to rerecord some songs and things and reprogram some things, but it wont stop me.

I was playing around making this little musical piece above. I got a 64mb video card and a 19″ monitor and upgraded my machines to an Athlon 2400+ and a 1800+. I use to be using an 1800+ and a 1000mhz. I also have 2 new 120gb drives.

Brandun was talking about moving! NO! His “friends” have been treating him like shit. Most people just suck nads! Brought my camera over and visited, copied some shit onto CD while I was there. Some stuff I needed that I didn’t have anymore since my HD crashed..

We took off to liberty park and just goofed around like complete idiots, like usual, I guess. LOL. Hmm, the green slide is kind of kule. haha. and the other weird shit they have. The hoops, yeah! We did some hoop grabbing and Brandun couldn’t take the picture at the right time, so I just look like a fucking literal retard trying to dance on the ground under a basketball hoop in all of the pics. Let me see.. we did some running in the air.. haha. Kind of a bit like Jesus. and well, only walked on the dock in the lake. I didn’t feel like taking the risk to see if I could walk on water.. Then when I left to go home I forgot to go back to Brandun’s and grab the damn CD with that shit I needed on it..

Mandy
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It sunk deep down inside of me, the thought of all that could have been. All the dreams I had to share and everything I believed in was lost. Insincerity and confusion marked the end of something I could have held on to forever. I wanted to lock my heart and throw away the key. I wanted to, but I couldn’t.

I took one last look back and a single breath, I felt your heart beating as I took one step ahead. My heart let out a deep cry and I could feel you pleading, It’s only in this lonely solitude that I can feel you near! It’s only in this lonely solitude that I can feel you near! It’s only in this lonely solitude that I can feel you near! It’s only in this lonely solitude, It’s only in this lonely solitude… 

The sound resonates with timbre so smooth, intertwined with the slight breeze that penetrates an absolutely perfect atmosphere. It’s this that I want to be so closely with. This essence which is just so impossible to describe, can only be experienced. Intimacy with the universe. All art, or all the beauty within, is taken from something so simply perfect that it’s nearly silent. I just want to close my eyes and become ever so closer to this, which I can’t describe, but I will try to forever, one attempt after the other.

I find it an odd coincidence that I came up here from outside to write this morning with three words on my mind: wind. resonance and intimacy. Then, later reading this horoscope:

July 17 – Weekly Horoscope – Control Freak – In a scene on the HBO TV show “Six Feet Under,” George told Ruth about a house he’d owned in New England. Built over a stream, it had originally been a mill, though the wheel and grinding stones had been removed decades before. After he’d lived there for a while, George decided to put a new floor in the kitchen. He ripped out the old surface, then tore up the first wooden plank of the foundation below. There, just two feet below him, was the stream — alive, sparkling, thrilling. He had known about it all along, but at that moment he actually saw it flowing beneath his house. I predict you will have a similar breakthrough in the coming week, Cancer. You will commune intimately with a source of magic you have had only indirect or imaginative contact with.

People have the right to choose who they wish to keep in their lives, and that’s something that should be respected. People will make those decisions based on whatever the reasons may be. Life goes on. I’m not saying what is right or wrong. Just that there’s no point in me arguing, when I’m on the side where the choice is not my own to make and when I made it perfectly clear that this friendship meant something to me. At least, I hope I did.

It’s really unfortunate how much time I’ve spent trying to prove it and how I still feel an urge to fight for it. I can only guess that I never had the slightest clue what was really wanted either deep inside of you or what I was doing wrong over and over again. Just get your life together because I sense that you haven’t really been happy in a long time. I just want to see and know that you’re happy.

My work of the last couple days. I decided to try Matt’s idea.. This is a musical idea that I pretty much played out on bass and sung freestyle without thinking about it too much. It came to me pretty easily and I got it recorded as quick as I could although I’m not sure how it exactly relates to the current situation in my life. lol. The rest was spent on the string arrangement. This is a rough draft.

This Way Forever
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Every time you look at me, I hope to see. See that look in your eyes that makes me feel complete. Everything I thought I had to say, suddenly vanishes and leaves me in defeat.

Because I have you in my arms, I’m happy and I pray that it will be this way forever.

For everything I ever wished that I could have been and everything we ever hope we can one day be. I see that the World make sense when I see it through your eyes. Destiny has called me to you and everything feels like it’s right.

Because I have you in my arms, I’m happy and I pray that it will be this way forever.

I found the truth in this moment, I learned about the greatest gift God gave the World. I seen all my hopes and dreams come to live, when I opened up my heart, I saw the light. Every time I look into your eyes, I see the signs and I know without a thought. I know without a doubt how it’s meant to be.

This is a newly recorded and altered song idea I originally wrote in Nov 2002. Short lo-fi preview of the nights work:

Ripping Away
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I feel it ripping away from me,
I feel it turning into dust.
I feel you leaving me,
like it wasn’t strong enough.

Oh, why can’t you see all meaning is dieing?
It meant everything to me and my soul is crying.

So I say, maybe it will… all fade away,
if you’ll just leave me be.
But it will! I swear it will all fade away
if you don’t hold on to me!

Maybe it will all fade away if you’ll just leave me be.
But it will! I swear it will all fade away
if you don’t hold on to me!