This year, I’ve vowed to myself to be more organized. I have a short term list and a routine. But like so many times before, I don’t want to get stuck in a hole. I’m trying to balance things out with the little enjoyments and curiosities in life. I’ve been becoming frustrated with music and I don’t want to lose the joy. Frustration is unhealthy and it means that something is wrong. I feel like my creativity has gone down the hole, or like the right side of my brain has just shut off and nothing feels new anymore. Everything feels tried, tested and old. I wrote a small bit of lyrics today and pieced a few pieces of music together. I was going to share it, but I figure I need to hold onto it until it can become something more. I feel like I’m on a slow road to recovery. I’ve got to get into the ebb and flow.
Instead, I made a pencil drawing tonight to share. I wanted to be an artist when I was a little kid, but I haven’t drawn hardly anything at all since I was in school. I want to do small creative things like this from day to day…