Writing is an art that can be very cathartic and raw in form. I want to read something fictitious, the reason being is that I want my mind to let go and explore for once. I’ve always considered myself a dreamer, but if I am, I’ve become a very stiff and jaded one. Yet, it’s so awesome that I can see myself about to grow so much more as a person. As I’ve said before, things haven’t begun. There is never a plateau to reach. We just continue to start from new beginnings, forever and ever. We should be satisfied in the fact that we know we’re continually growing and bettering ourselves. Yet, never satisfied to stop, as if we do, we’ll die. But we might, once the exploration has ended. Well, the exploration will never end. It will just forever change, possibly to the point that it takes on another form altogether. The moments that I allow myself time to explore, create, play or reflect are the moments I’m free. The freedom I’ve searched for my entire life. In retrospect, I can see the steps I’ve taken towards my own freedom. Most people don’t know what we’ve been through and how heavy our hearts become when our passions are discredited. We have to be strong.

Explain things in the simplest way possible. It’s a good quote from Albert Einstein. I’m writing this down right now to remind myself. It’s a wise approach for my music at the moment. It’s time I simplify all of the projects that I’m working on, sort them out in an easier way to handle and keep them fresh.

The scale of the material I’m working on these days surpasses anything I’ve done in the past. This stuff is more complex even with the ability to sort it out into convenient little folders in a sequencer. I’m now carrying around a portable laptop to my girlfriends house and the other places I go, the whole idea of a studio has in a sense ’simplified’ itself, while becoming ever so complex at the same time. I can sufficiently make an entire album with a 7lb. laptop. With more options at my disposal than I had on any Underground Bass Masters album I’ve made. Yet again, a threatening thought, although it shouldn’t be and it isn’t with willingness to let go of the past to make way for a new beginning. Technology is a huge luxury we’ve all received in this day and age, but it still has yet to teach us many things about ourselves as we sift through the excess and search for the balance of simplicity that is surrounding all of us.

The music world is a different place than it was not very long ago. The way music is created has changed and I think some of us always resist change to some degree rather than embrace it when it would do us more good to do so. Some of us like to discredit things when those things aren’t done in the seasoned old fashioned ways that we’ve become adept to. People do it all the time when they criticize. Killing the new ideas before they’ve reached their fruition. The idea of an artist starting fresh and anew over again is very frightening, but after every piece we create, we start with a blank pallet! We’ve done it again and again. We’ve all faced drawn out empty uninspired deserts in which most of us keep on writing and striving and in the end have taught us a great deal. I accept the fact that I can’t repeat the past with the same formula with the same type of ambition I once had.. But even if we could, I’m not sure I’d want to. Our desires drive us to push our art in different directions that only our souls see fit. And I yearn to see where things are headed. We only dry up the well if we don’t follow our hearts. We become lost the instant we know what the results will be.

I don’t know how it could be seen from an outside perspective, because all you hear is what is put out into the world for you to hear, but in the years when things are silent and you’re not hearing anything new, I’ve never stopped creating. All artists are trekking upwards in the night. Showing up to create is the most important parts of my life, the place where I find my peace to reflect my take on life and the place where I can, alone, celebrate the achievement of bringing my goals to light.

to vent without self-destruction,
to plan without interference,
to complain without an audience,
to dream without restriction,
to know my own mind.