I’m losing an uphill battle, doing nothing with my life. Sitting in limbo, unable to make decisions. Wanting to reach out and hold onto something, even though I really do have security around me, only if I reach out and embrace it. I have people who care, but maybe it’s me who shrugs it all away.

So much can be done in so little time, time is wasting as I can be trying much harder. If only I didn’t get stuck in this tunnel vision, and I would allow myself to keep focus outside of the details. Stop overlooking all of the good things. Stop concentrating on all of the bad things. Too eager to overlook the entire picture, by just the touch of what I think may turn out bad. Life should keep moving in a direction, give me all my aggressive goals in the world, if I can force myself to overcome them, then I’ll be living my life, instead of this superficial life, stuck in a rut. Too blind to see it, shrugging it off and ignoring the reality that dreams do come true, when you recognize them. When you make them come true as aggressively as you can and you say I’m going to be this and then you do it.

Just stop pretending to be something more than you are, overlooking the reality of who you are. People are beginning to see to your core, the answer why no one will stay. Don’t feel pity for yourself, just accept these truths and then fix them. another stepping stone, realizing the truth is that you still know nothing and have never become who you had hoped to become. I should also know that I’ve never tried to become who you wish to become, to eager to feel sympathy for myself. Don’t let the things you love be destroyed by yourself.

Do you ever wonder what makes this world go around?
What makes us each so beautifully insane?
Do you wonder why we let our dreams die beneath wasted self-worth,
when we know full well that we can do what we choose.
Yet we refuse,
living each day as if one day we’ll be set free,
while enrolling ourselves in our own self-righteous slavery,
too afraid of what it may feel like to let go of the struggle,
the struggle we seem to live and strive for.
Afraid that once we do what we’ve worked forever for,
our lives may be swept away and taken from us.

Then again,
we’re too afraid to taint our passions,
forgetting the fact that to live life is to make mistakes,
that the real fact is: to be human and to live is to be imperfect and to make mistakes.

Raw, emotional and uncut.
the beautifully insane.

Don’t let us forget.