Why do some of us grow up with this image that everything will turn out so perfect, that we will be rich, famous and have that one perfect person to fall in love with and be happy with forever? And that all we need is that one person to be happy. Lately it seems like everything is opposite in life than the way people say. Like, girls say that guys are all jerks and that they want someone who is sensitive and nice and shit. But what I’m learning is that girls seem to want the complete opposite of what they say. They push you away for being too serious or too nice or not serious enough. To me, girls seem to start acting more and more like the image often put onto the way guys supposedly are. Throw images out, maybe we’re all the same, or maybe we’re all different.. But even the girls, they seem to be the ones in control. They seem to be the ones responsible if a relationship can actually flourish. But all I want is that one person. And that’s all I need is that one. That one special person who’s sweet and who’s smile and laugh makes me happy and fills the rest of my day with joy. I would do anything! But what’s it worth if I can’t keep her happy? Maybe these things only exist in fairytales, I don’t know.. But without Jessica, I feel like it’s so far away… I can’t start to describe the way that I feel right now and I can’t even guess how to respond. Inside, I’m not really okay.. Right now I’m just trying to go on with life and pretend everything is okay…. I hate watching this happen.