I feel like I have no choice in the matter. I’m so lonely, but if I let you go I would hate myself. Words can’t describe the way I’ve felt and continue to feel about you. But I’m not so sure that bond exists anymore. The only choice I’m given is to either stand by and watch or let it go. But I’ve tried and it seems so wrong. I really did believe and I still hold onto that hope, but it’s killing me. I don’t think I could be everything you wish for though. And I know you don’t feel the way you once did anymore. I thought it would last forever and who knows… as I’m holding onto what seems hopeless. You’re the closest to heaven that I’ve ever been. I really truly believed in the words you had once said to me. I thought that we would meet and be together, forever. It’s slowly falling through the seams and I have no right to hold on to you.