My friends girlfriend started talking to me about how my friend just left and she was so sad she was crying because she missed him and couldn’t get to sleep. I started thinking, what’s she got to be sad about?? She’ll see him tomorrow.. Then she called him on the cell phone. I’m like, see.. he’s right there! and it’s pretty much guaranteed.. but I started crying, thinking the person I care for is thousands of miles away and I don’t even know what’s going to happen. I don’t even know what we are? It will be at least half a year if I ever even have the chance to be with her. But I already feel like I’m being pushed away. 1,700 miles away. :’( It might be the closest I get. I can’t do it on my own!!!!!!!!!!! and I’m beginning to feel foolish to think it could have been and if it could still be. :’( Maybe I’m thriving on lies I wish were truth. ‘Go back to your old ways’ because of someone else, as if I were never even there at all in the first place. It doesn’t make sense anymore.