Push all the feelings aside. Just cover them up, hide them, bury them.. Whatever.. Boohoo.. What the hell is the point of being sad.

It’s funny though, last night before I went to bed I was like completely normal and then all of a sudden I burst out crying out of the middle of nowhere. Then I went into my bedroom and just forgot about everything again. I guess trying to forget about it is the only thing I can do. It’s so retarded. I become obsessive. I let things get ingrained in me.

It’s important I don’t let some things go so far. I need to keep my options completely open to doing the most I possibly can. And I’m talking about everything in my life. Not imaginary relationships or real life or even relationships at all… I must admit, I have to be fucked to think so much of illusionary things. Things that I wish were, but really weren’t.

The only thing I have to talk to is this piece of .html. but.. I mean on another note.. today was for the majority, a pretty good day and I have a lot to be grateful for.