I weigh about 176lbs. now. My face even looks different. lol. I thought it was suppose to be a pain in the ass to get in shape? At least people make it seem so and I guess most people just figure that and never even really try. or, maybe it’s just will power, I dunno.. If that’s the case, most people must have.. none! lol. But I remember my brother in-law asking me, “Why did you buy a bass guitar? You can’t play it!”. I answered, “How do you think you learn?”.. and I remember people telling me something similar when I first started writing music. I think a lot of people just don’t believe that some things are possible. But I guess when I say I’m going to do something or I really want something, I go for it. I have had my dreams come true in the past and I still have a long way to go and a long process of growing as a person.

I uploaded Arciform to www.mp3.com/ubm, it should be there in a week, if you want to hear it. Also, Dome Spike is up on there right now.

I quit work almost a year ago, so that I could work on the Audesi album and prepare to start playing live shows. Somewhere in the middle, I seem to have been a little distracted from what I was trying to accomplish. But it didn’t matter. I fell madly in love and nothing much seemed to matter as much as that. Things that couldn’t be promised, things you hoped would last forever. “in the mirror, I see the truth, I see you and me together, we’re Free.”…”I was running away from myself, until I saw my reflection, and I noticed, who I saw, was You. and I saw past the petty imperfections.”…”I saw the truth and it scared me, I didn’t believe this could be real.
I didn’t believe that this could be bigger and better than anything else.” But sometimes knowing the truth hurts. You owned my heart. I believed the things you had told me.

I did end up writing some really great songs in the past year and I am going to get things done. I just didn’t get the band together and the shows booked.