Artists speak to the wind and only have faith that some is listening. So it makes sense that we create on canvases that the World may never see. Our hearts get buried in overwhelming amounts of music and books. So much is left at the bottom of the crate, never heard or understood. We’re all just overwhelmed today and ready to shut off our brains. Too much is thrown directly in our faces, that we have no space to search for ourselves.

Last night, my heart had seen a light through a slit in the ether and my subconscious is warning me that I might have run out of choices. For once in my life, I feel like I’m in all the wrong places. I’ve departed from the illusion that’s guided me, which had given me goosebumps across my skin for years. Now there’s something, dragging me down. It steps on my chest at night and pins me down, tells me I can’t go anywhere because it wants to take control. A black soul lingers at the bottom of the staircase, so I’m thinking of escape, out the window, behind the house tonight.

There comes a point when ones input far exceeds the output, and the mind meanders in fields of unexamined thoughts. All channels have been clogged, like a valve has been shut off and a drought has begun, but in reality, so many thoughts are trying to break through, that they’re flooding out at infinite speed in the wrong direction, too unfocused to flow through such a narrow pipe.

and with sympathy, I know what it feels like to be one of those lost molecules. Each one is a thought, or feeling. An experience I’ve had in a moment of my life. Things I’ve only dreamed and others I wish I’ve had the opportunity to experience.

I apologize for how badly written this is, but sometimes my emotions can only express themselves when the lines are entirely flawed.

Is this how it feels?
There aren’t even words…
No place to begin….
The heartache that I feel,
knowing you see the World so bleak.
and knowing that I’ve lost my place,
I’ve finally stumbled and have fell.
But, who the hell am I? …

It hurts me to see you like this,
to know the thoughts that have run through your head…
To see a soul, crushing under the weight of the World…
I want to save you,
but I too am lost..
and I am sorry!
I’ve never mustered up the courage,
and that’s why I’ve lost my will.

but, you are my eyes,
and I am the body they’re perched upon.
You are the muse,
and I am the courier that must release the storm.
My thoughts are incomplete,
more of a feeling than having any meaning.
but please,
wake up for me…
Open your eyes.
See what’s sacrosanct.
The crushing weight isn’t worth retaining,
although I know it’s so familiar.
Your souls been left throughout a drought,
but the dreary daffodils will return to life with care.
If my tears will wet the soil enough,
i’ll pray that it rains down until the void is filled.
because we are the only thing that ever made sense.

Check out Audesi on Jango Radio @ http://www.jango.com/music/Audesi. Also, full length previews of Audesi’s Breathing single are available on Last.FM @ http://www.last.fm/music/Audesi/Breathing+(Single). While you’re there, make sure to check out our label, Octava Records, page at http://www.last.fm/label/Octava+Records. You can hear new tracks by Polaroid Kiss and music from the Underground Bass Masters.

Audesi’s ‘Breathing’ single is now available through Octava Records on Amazon.com, Amie Street, eMusic, Napster and Shockhound.

Audesi’s ‘Breathing’ single is now available on Amazon.com.

Audesi’s remixes are available on Amazon.com.

Listen to Audesi’s music streaming on LAST.FM. Last.fm is a UK-based Internet radio and music community website, founded in 2002. It has over 21 million active users based in more than 200 countries. Last.fm builds a detailed profile of each user’s musical taste by recording details of all the songs the user listens to, either on the streamed radio stations or on the user’s computer or some portable music devices. The site offers numerous social networking features and can recommend and play artists similar to the user’s favourites.

Audesi is currently recording a debut album for release on Octava Records, as well as producing albums for Polaroid Kiss and Xavier Orengo. Please check back occasionally, or subscribe to our mailing list and be updated as soon as announcements become available.